Yesterday started with so many good intentions. The chores were done. Bits of trash picked up. Pots were stashed and I was starting to burn off the garden. It didn't really want to burn, but we were making headway regardless. Then the skies opened. It didn't take long to get soaked and a bit chilled. So, once in the house, I wrapped up and as I became warm, I feel asleep. The day was lost.
I should pay closer attention to the weather. But it has become more difficult to tell when it is serious or just teasing me. Last night on the news a stock analyst was second guessing oil futures. Wall Street thinks it will be a mild winter. This might help people like me who are walking into winter with no hay. I will keep working on getting pasture fenced and accessible and rotate the horses onto new ground. I wonder if Wall Street has their own weather men.....
I'm watching the clouds this morning. The sun is not fully up yet. There is an almost solid cover of clouds. This morning they look like inverted rolling hills. Nothing jagged or menacing, no gashes of bright colors. I have no idea if this is good news or not. Like always, we shall start and see where we end up when the day is over.
The next three days I will be attending a horse clinic. It will be featuring the Parelli instructor, Dave Ellis. I should be excited, but I am getting bogged down with how to manage my chores and Mac. While other people at the clinic will be hanging out, having a bonfire, listening to guitar playing, I shall be driving over an hour to get back home and make sure everyone has eaten. Making sure that meds are taken and in general be distracted by everything at home. It is better then nothing and I will take it. I know that once there, I will feel better. I will feel hopeful. I will have a better idea of what I want to do. I will feel better because I will get to talk to people and not spend all of my time with in my own head. I think my brains are getting a bit of cabin fever and getting out will be a good thing.
As I have been writing, the sun has gone. The clouds have flattened out and the world looks gray. I hope it doesn't stop me from getting things done, but I know it will make everything take longer and feel heavier. I guess that means I had better get to it. Chores do not do themselves.